~~Up-Hill Task~~

~~~~~Up-Hill Task~~~~~

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Yesterday something went wrong.

I said to myself;

Leave it to Him.

But my mind kept wondering and worrying.

Then Bhagavan asked me;

"Who worries ?"

And in a flash, I could see that so for I had been saying ;

"Leave everything to Him",

But it was all just at the level of mind.

And so far I had not really left the mind that causes fear,

anxiety, anger, discomfort, along-with the joy and the pride of

achievement,..that comes under the grip of illusion and confusion.

In brief,;

I take it as 'me' / 'I'. 

Sometimes I say;

"I" am afraid, sad,....

And after a while I say;

"I' was afraid, sad,....

I also say in my ignorance / understanding of my (!?) mind;

"My mind is afraid, sad,.."

as if I (whatever that is) is really the owner of the thing 'the mind'.

So mind itself causes division between it's various states.

And the mind itself causes an imagined 'me' / 'I', who is the 'owner'.

And mind keeps it's play uninterruptedly.

So, when I really Leave the mind to Him, it means it is no more mine.

And the owner of the mind the apparent 'I' / 'me' caused by the mind is not

a real entity / thing. 

Surrender (Samarpana) means the mind is not mine, I can't control, change it.

And it belongs to Him. It is upon Him.
Quite a difficult task.




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