Silent Dialogues 333
This series of silent dialogues started in 1995, when I used to go on my morning and evening walks in a locality near and around Mahanandanagar, UJJAIN (MP). At that time I was living at the address :
LIG II A 18/15.
This address was published there in my Hindi Translation : अहं ब्रह्मास्मि
of the English original I AM THAT, :
The Talks of Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, compiled and translated from Marathi.
After that much waters have flown in the Ganges and the Kumbha 2025 has told this all over the whole world.
After about 25 years I once again got in touch with my Ashwattha near a small village in Ujjain, while I was living in the Sethinagar area.
The same duo was there in the :
Hathi-Park,
Earlier in 1989-1994 also I was there.
This was the place where I had time to go through this world-renowned work of Maurice Frydmann - I AM THAT.
There was an inner impulse that I felt "This book needs to be translated into Hindi."
This was indeed the inevitable internal urge that forced me to do this myself.
However after a short while I left the place and went to Omkareshwar where I started this great enterprise.
Within 10 years this happened and the first edition was published by Chetana in 2001.
It's a bit strange coincidence that at that time in the year 2000, I was thinking of living at Kashi and had a chance-visit to :
Krishnamurti Foundation, situated at - Rajaghat Varanasi.
If my memory is correct, Kashi Railway-Station was at a walking distance from there.
Mentally I was in a state of leaving out the world and living in that area where old people often to pass their last days on the earth.
Providence / Destiny had something else for me in store.
Now, after those days in 2000, have gone away, I find myself again in the same old situation.
In the Hathi-Park when I approached the Ashwattha, he was greatly pleased and as in the old days expressed His wish to hug me. I went to Him and clasped Him in my grasp.
Seeing me The Little was also overjoyed.
When the few long moments ultimately passed away, He asked me :
"Why did you returned from Kashi? You could have taken a plunge into Ganges and passed the rest of the days there, leaving all concerns of your life at the hands of Shiva, Who always looks after you anyway, even if you forget or doubt Him.
I was taken aback.
He was a bit cruel - I felt.
Cruel but Kind too.
I realized.
This means He is hinting me to go again there. Instead I took my old devotion and passion for the Mother Narmada River and She too arranged my visit at a place where I can have a darshana everyday, any time in Her shelter.
Ashwattha however reminded me of the following stanzas from the Gita :
आरुरुक्षोर्मुनेर्योगं कर्म कारणमुच्यते।
योगारूढस्य तस्यैव शमः कारणमुच्यते।।३।।
यदा हि नेन्द्रियार्थेषु न कर्मस्वनुषज्जते।
सर्वसंकल्पसन्न्यासी योगारूढस्तदोच्यते।।४।।
(अध्याय ६)
अश्वत्थः सर्ववृक्षाणां देवर्षिणां च नारद।
गन्धर्वाणां चित्ररथः सिद्धानां कपिलो मुनिः।।२६।।
(अध्याय १०)
अनपेक्षः शुचिर्दक्षः उदासीनो गतव्यथः।
सर्वारम्भपरित्यागी यो मद्भक्तः स मे प्रियः।।२७।।
(अध्याय १२)
Sitting on a bench some 15-20 feet away from Him, I was listening to His words when my memory translated them in the above verses of Gita.
I've nothing to do now.
Watching the River flow before my eyes, I am now just passing my days in silence.
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